End of the Day

Flash backward, a dozen years … no, fifteen years … 2004 … late spring, early summer. Hopper confronting a new house, an empty house, a house with various rooms in various states of painting …

The downstairs half-bath, next door to the deck to the backyard. I recall two six-hour days priming and re-painting that three by four foot room with one single window, while the missus lay elsewhere, pregnant and laden with the future Little One. Wearing worn out shorts, spider-man like, awkward postures to hit every angle, I painted the hell out of that damn room, multiple layerings from multiple angles. 

And in doing so, I listened to, about two or three dozen times apiece, Fables of the Reconstruction, by R.E.M., specifically, Driver 8, but more importantly, for reasons I cannot fathom, the following tune, by Beck:

I've seen the end of the day come too soon
Not a lot to say, not a lot to do
You played the game, you owe nothing to yourself
Rest a day, for tomorrow you can't tell
You can't tell

I've seen the end of the day come too late
Seen the love you had turning into hate
Had to act like I didn't even care
But I did so I got stranded standing there
Standing there

It's nothing that I haven't seen before
But it still kills me like it did before
No it's nothing that I haven't seen before
But it still kills me like it did before

I've seen the end of the day come too soon
Like the prison dogs they set out after you
You owe nothing to the past but wasted time
To serve a sentence that was only in your mind
In your mind

It's nothing that I haven't seen before
But it still kills me like it did before
No it's nothing that I haven't seen before
But it still kills me like it did before