I was never a ditto head.
But, like many out there, it was listening to Rush that
converted me to a lifelong philosophy of conservatism.
Well, that’s not exactly correct, at least according
to an early memory I’m quite fond of that took place when I was about
12 or so. I was laying on the living room floor (no doubt paging through my
Beloved Physics Book) while my parents watched the Reagan Carter debate.
Whenever Reagan spoke, I simply felt good; whenever Carter said something, I felt
the exact opposite. Now, it could be Reagan’s stage presence, his smooth voice
and warm persona. But I felt safe and comforted listening to the man. Though
the ideas discussed soared over my head, I knew Reagan and his ideas were …
just right.
A few years passed, me blissfully unaware of politics,
political theory and political theater (much more preoccupied with the shifting
familial landscape of divorced parents), and before I knew it, I was at
college. Where I was bombarded 24/7 with anti-Reagan propaganda and full-flung
liberal ideology. Man! And this was the 80s! I truly feel sorry for what
conservative students today must face.
Soon after, young idiot I was, I cast my first legal
vote in a presidential election for Michael Dukakis. And then, like many
indoctrinated liberal students, did not vote in any state or local elections
for another four years. Then, I decided, after careful research and rumination,
to cast my vote for this new up and coming politician: Bill Clinton. “Hey man,”
I recall saying to a friend at the time, “Bush is just for big business, and
Clinton isn’t!”
A couple more years passed with me preoccupied with
friends, a semi-serious girlfriend, a full-time garage band seeking greater
success, and business school at night followed by physics classes at a local university.
Then, in the spring of 1993, I listened to one Rush Limbaugh broadcast in my
car during my lunchbreak.
I’d heard of him before. My bassist, way back in 1989
or 90 or so, recommended me to him, but I brushed it aside. Conservatives were
squares, man. Now pass me a beer, and don’t forget to book the rehearsal studio
– gotta work on the new songs for the gig next week.
After my tentative first listen that brisk sunny March
day, I felt a little weird. A small chink in the cornerstone of my belief
system might have been quietly and softly knocked a little out of place. To
reassure my liberal persona I made fun of Limbaugh to another friend, and we
both had ourselves a good chuckle. This Rush guy certainly was no Howard Stern!
A little while passed – can’t say how long – but I listened
again. And again, and again. I was listening in the car at lunch, and this soon
followed with listening to him with headphones on the radio at my desk. My
reversion to conservatism was soon barreling ahead and out of control.
In the fall of 93 I voted against New Jersey’s
longtime senator, Frank Lautenberg. My candidate lost, but it was a major milestone
for me. I voted Republican. And every election since, I either voted Republican
or third-party.
Why?
Well, without digressing into a personal political
treatise, what Rush said simply made sense. I felt he was for the little guy,
the small businessman, the man trying to make a living for himself and his
family, in ways more authentic than any Democrat talking point. I believed HE
believed his message, and his message made SENSE to me. It echoed back to
debate Reagan. It just felt right in my gut. And more importantly, I understood the logic of his arguments.
(Course, it didn’t hurt that I had a religious
conversion around the same time. As long as abortion is a non-negotiable in the
Democrat party platform, I will NEVER vote for them.)
Like I said earlier, I was not a ditto-head. There
were only two periods in my life where I listened to him with any regularity.
First was probably 94 to 96 or so. At this time I also bought and read his two
books, and yes, they did shock me at the time. Primarily because they said
things – Rush said things – that no one else in the media was saying. The
second period was when I was out of work for most of 2010, when I was having my
lung surgeries. During those two phases I listened to him a couple times a
week, for most of the three-hour show. But the years in between I would only
listen, perhaps, a couple times a year.
I admire his success. I admire his courage. And though
he was lacking somewhat in the personal morality department, he was a firm
Pro-Life advocate and did much and raised much money for charity. I enjoyed
every hour spent listening to him, and thank him for letting me know it was
okay to be a conservative.
Rest in peace, Rush.