Wow, that
went fast.
Summer
started for me when Little One swept in from Europe back on May 18. Three
whirlwind months later we packed her up and dropped her off at school for Junior
year, a 45-minute not-too-far but not-too-close drive away. It’ll be a week
tomorrow, and already the house seems much more quiet, even though she’s often
quiet as a mouse herself.
Though I’m
blue at the moment, the summer had its high points. But also, bizarrely, it
seemed empty to me, and I feel much like one of those wind-up figurines that parades
out of a medieval clock every hour on the hour to circle about doing its thing
and then returns inside. A lot of the summer felt rote, by the book, task A to
task B to task C wash rinse repeat ad infinitum.
My life
here has kinda devolved into pure routine: Tuesdays and Wednesdays in the office
doing accounting; Mondays, Thursdays and Fridays hanging in the home office
doing accounting. Mow the lawn and trim the hedges every ten days. Water the grass
every other day. Put out the trash and recycling every Sunday night. Church.
Chipotle on Friday nights.
The highlights
were Patch’s confirmation ceremony and the party that followed. Father’s Day
was an enjoyable experience for the four of us and not just me. We had a unique
Fourth of July where we kinda snuck into an event, watched a brilliant
fireworks display, then snuck back out, avoiding all sorts of traffic and the
oppressive humidity of the day. I bonded with my dog the two weeks the girls
went away to Pennsylvania, followed immediately by another week when they left
with the Mrs. to visit her mom in South Carolina.
I
continued bonding with my youngest for Thursday movie night (a routine I fully
enjoy). We watched some interesting flicks (“psychological thrillers” is the
term she uses), ranging from A Beautiful Mind and Awakenings to A
Perfect Murder and Psycho II. We still do Saturday errands together,
and we did that with her older sister when she wasn’t working her summer job,
an activity that I heartily enjoy with my girls and have since they were
toddlers.
Me, I look
back and feel somewhat empty. Yeah, that fence thing took a full work-week out
of my life, spread out over eight summer weeks. But I didn’t really accomplish
anything of note. Yeah, I burned my way through five Tom Clancy re-reads
from May to August, and that’s all fine and good, but I didn’t do anything creative,
other than these scattered blog entries, and that’s a growing thorn in my side.
A couple
of days ago I pulled out an old notebook and did some brainstorming – I wanted
to list ten projects I could do. No limitations, no prejudgment, no holds barred.
Only things that I would like to spend my time on, even if ultimately they came
to nothing. After 45 minutes I came up with six ideas. This’ll be a subject of
a future post, but I’m hoping these will inject a spark into the daily grind of
existence.
Perhaps
this is a bit of existential angst that’s come over me. I do have a birthday coming
up. But life is not all meaningless for
me; far from it and I don’t want to give that impression. My reading ranges all
over the board and is a source of education and entertainment for me. I listen
to all sorts of music daily and play my acoustic guitar at least 30 minutes a
day (“Ramble On” is my latest obsession). I’ve been working out since the end
of July and have the physique of a young Schwarzenegger (when he was about 12,
I’d estimate 😊).
The Mrs. and I do periodic date nights and we generally enjoy our time together,
as much as the average couple married for 23 years. I walk around the ponds by
my house, I chat with the people at work, I’m soda and booze free and have a
clean bill of health from the docs.
Sigh.
Time’s
just going by too fast.
Verdict on
the Summer of 2024?
Solid B.
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